once or twice but, whos countin?

my life is crashing down. i dont know who to turn to or who to talk to. i HATE my life now. the love of my life hates me, my two ride or die bestfriends and i arent friends anymore. my ‘brother’ accused me of something false and untrue and we arent friends anymore. the whole SCHOOL hates me because 2 girls framed me and made everyone believe i keyed someones car.

everything is going so wrong. ive NEVER been this depressed. i never want to do anything but cry. my ex boyfriend is walking all over me because i fucked up ONE time when we werent together out of all the the things he was hiding from me when we WERE together. on top of that i fucking hate the way i look. i hate the way i feel. im sick to my stomach. i dropped out of school. god fucking hates me. i just need to vent to someone or something but i have no one to go to. so im venting to tumblr.

its so crazy how fast it is. just yesterday i was in 8th grade crushing on one of my very best friends today. my 2 girl bestfriends looked and acted completely different now. we all have cars, we all have piercings, and just things in general have changed. society, the economy, THE MUSIC. as we grow older its all changing. ill play songs i listened to 3 years ago and it brings back so many memories i just want to go back SO FUCKING BAD. anyone else with me?

she is perfection

i could stay there forever. i close my eyes.

having a kid with Josh mitschke.. HAHSHAHAH who ever is I feel sorry for., he will NEVER be in your kids life. #randomthought

I hope I am…

JUST because yall have been dating 3+ months DOES NOT automatically give you the privileged right to control your girlfriend. she can and she will smoke cigarettes if she pleases. she also has friends too. shes going to go hangout with her girlfriends and her guyfriends. not every ‘guyfriend’ she has, shes fucking. if she was fucking him, i dont think yall would be together. you dont have to text her EVERY MINUTE of EVERY DAY. give her, her space. sheeesh. and shes not going to drop what shes doing to come see you.. the world does not revolve around you boys. we are independent girls. we are also TEENAGERS. we will do what we want when we want. get off of our clits!!  

that i didnt even let you borrow. i left it at your bestfriends house. you know, the two faced one? its okay. you can keep MY necklace. considered your slut germs are ALL over it now. keep that shit. matter of fact… burn it.

yours